When I woke up this morning it looked overcast, and got me worrying that it might rain. Then I looked at the clock and saw it was only 6am, so the darkened sky was probably just because the sun hadn’t completely risen yet. I slept off and on until around 8am. It was still overcast and chilly. I got started on breakfast (strawberry crepes) and just as the butter started melting in the pan I started hearing water droplets hitting the ground! The first thing I did was put the rain canopy on the tent, just in case it got worse. So far, though, it was light enough that I went back to my breakfast.
Well, it ended up sprinkling enough to get things somewhat wet. I packed up the van as quickly as possible, saving the tent for last. Once most everything else was packed up, I started packing up my things in the tent (sleeping bag, sleeping pad, duffle bag, etc.). To my relief, as I was finishing up inside the tent, the rain ceased and blue sky emerged. Whew! I continued with the tent, and finished up camp with a good two buckets of water in the campfire plus a good stirring of the ashes. All packed up.
As I tried to get the tent back in its bag, I got the imagery of a butterfly trying to re-enter its cocoon! (except I finally managed to make it fit, whereas a butterfly wouldn’t be so lucky).
I had a little time left so I drove up to the end of the road and hiked a few hundred feet up a trail with my fishing pole and supplies. I figure I bought the fishing license so I should at least try to catch a fish! I wouldn’t eat it right away, but would probably clean it and bring it home. No luck, but had a good little hike nonetheless.
Cold Chicken Fiesta, celery and string cheese for lunch, and I’m now sitting in the car with the heater on, about to head home.
I must confess I’m torn about going home. I’m desperately eager to be with my family again, but don’t feel I got as much out of this trip spiritually as I had hoped. I finally have the whole place to myself and I have to leave. I have a 3 ½ hour drive ahead of me, so that will give me time to reflect as well, but wish I had more time to commune with God without others around. I think next time I’ll try to come up after work on Friday and come home on Tuesday.
The chief thing I feel I need to focus on right now (as I wrote yesterday) is repentance. To do that, I must seek God’s wisdom for knowing what to repent of. This trip has definitely been a time of renewal and refocus for me. I can only hope it is evident to others when I return home and that I pursue God in a more intentional way on a daily basis. I know I can’t expect to be transformed into the man I hope to be in one brief weekend, but my hope is that God honors my intentions and, over time, forms me into the Godly man He envisions me to be.
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